Friday, November 8, 2013

I Think I Might Have Broke Me & My Husband Wants Me Dead.

True love.
I'm sure I've groused about the same crick in my neck and right shoulder before. I carry all my stress in my shoulders, you see. When I drive, my shoulders hunch up around my ears. I clench my jaw. I'm a very stiff person and not in a good way, if you know what I mean. Wait that doesn't even make sense, I'm a girl.

At any rate, I'm real uptight.

And because of that, I walk around like the Hunchback of Notre Dame half the time. I cripple myself with my own neurosis and up-tightedness. I'm very tense. I like to pretend like I'm this real easy-going, Devil-May-Care, Buddhist type, but really, you could bounce a metaphorical quarter off my psyche.

I've been going through this whole rigmarole of getting massages constantly until my neck and shoulder are unclenched from their death grip of stress. It takes four or five weeks of consecutive massages until I'm not in constant pain.

And then I stop going.

A few weeks later and I'm back in my state of crippled paralysis.

It amuses my husband to no end. Not that he isn't sympathetic, of course. I mean, he's the one that has to rub my shoulders and neck every night while I wince, whimper and flinch.

"You really are a delicate flower, aren't you?" he asks, unwisely, because he is straddling my back and has left his unmentionables vulnerable to a stray elbow of retaliation.

"Very funny. OUCH!" My voice is mostly muffled into a pillow while he inflicts pain on my wrecky body.

"How are you going to outlive me if you're so fragile?" I can hear him snicker and it enrages me.

"I'm not going to die of neck pain, you ass."

"I dunno. You might," he says this in a mock regretful tone, as though he is really sorry that I might die before him.

My husband and I are both competitive types. We might be overachievers. We might even be obnoxious about it. Our entire house is a battlefield of who can be the most OCD neat freak of the land. We each think the other one is losing that battle because we each have separate definitions of what constitutes neatness. I like to scrub and Windex things. He likes to move things off the counter and hide them in nonsensical places like drawers and cupboards. It's not a satisfying battle because we each think we are the victor and we are each frustrated that the other won't admit defeat.

It is in this environment of two competitive freaks of nature that we fight over who is going to die first. Normal couples wouldn't discuss this, I don't think. Or at least they wouldn't be vying to be the one who outlived the other. I think you're supposed to feel like you couldn't live without your spouse and hence would never want to experience the pain of losing the other one? Or something like that.

But no. Not us. Because it's a competition over who's healthier, fitter or may I point out, YOUNGER.

I'm 9 years younger than my husband. And women are supposed to outlive men by 7 years on average. That puts me at outliving him by a good 16 years. I've pointed this out to him and it makes him furious.

"There's no way that is happening," he says. "The sheer rage of even the slightest suggestion that you would beat me will keep me alive."

"That's a fine attitude. I'll have that engraved on your headstone."

"I'll have my ass bending over mooning everyone engraved on your headstone."

"Nice. I'll be sure and bring that comment up when you're dead and I am living with my sister and our 17 cats."

"That's fine. Just never remarry. Dedicate your life to your children and family."

"Don't be ridiculous. I've told you that you could remarry once I've been dead a year and no sooner. You should at least give me that courtesy."

"A whole year?"

"Yes. One year. You need to learn how to live alone and not marry the first woman who lets you touch her boob."

"So no dating whatsoever for one year?"

"Yes. We've had this conversation before and I was very clear."

"But what if someone just let me touch their boob without buying dinner. Would that count?"

"Yes! No dating for one year means no dating for one year! And no sex whatsoever. Dating or not."

"Not even a hand job?"

"NO!"

"Can I 'accidentally' touch some lady's butt in the elevator?"

"God no!"

"Maybe I don't' want to outlive you after all."

"Exactly. Just get some more cats to keep you company."

"Can I touch their butts?"

Clearly, the man can't live without me. And yes I totally realize he's not going to an entire year without the comfort of a woman if I were to pass away. But I've told him I'm going to haunt him and whisper criticisms of his sexual performance in his ear just to ruin the fun for him. Now that's true love, when someone goes Poltergeist on your ass.


18 comments:

  1. There's no way I'm leaving my cats with my husband. They really need to learn that I'm the nicer person & that won't happen if I'm dead.

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    1. It's important to think of the cats' best interest, I agree.

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  2. I love that picture you paint of the two of you, Mandy.

    Wait. "Love" isn't the right word. Too feminine. What I meant to say is I sincerely appreciate the descriptive cadence of such a lovingly competitive relationship, written in such a compelling manner.

    Nope. Still not working.

    Your blog was okay. I suppose.

    (MUCH better)

    Seriously - this is why couples like you guys will take over the world someday, and neaten the *hell* out of it. For every cupboard, a purpose. No purposes left unattended or gathering dust on the counter. Booyah.

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    1. It's a bit exhausting sometimes. But at least we look good.

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  3. This was one of the more amusing things you have written in a while.. but I always like Black Mandy best.

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  4. You're totally gonna outlive him. My grandpa was full of rage and determined as hell to outlive my grandma, but it didn't work out. Now she touches all the butts.

    My husband is always saying he's going to die 20 years before me, so I guess I need to work on my contingency plan. A second marriage might be fun, but a lot of effort. Cats and muumuus are probably more my style.

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    1. I forwarded your comment to my husband and he was not amused.

      I, on the other hand, was in stitches!

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  5. I totally love and relate to this post. Tapati and I discuss who will outlive the other (before my sobriety this year...it was probably going to be her. Still might...) I can relate to sticking things in drawers and closets, and feeling smug that my OCD/hoarding is *hidden*. I do think a whole year is too long for no boob. Maybe six months? In regards to haunting...instead of commenting on sexual performance, maybe spray windex each time some *activity* is occuring. It would freak me out if I was sprayed each time I was trying to touch boob...

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    1. I like the idea of infiltrating the house with the smell of Windex at key moments. You'd make an excellent ghost.

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  6. You need your own sitcom. I would total watch it.

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  7. I agree with Eva ^^^. I would totally watch it too.

    Why do Jewish men die before their wives?
    Because they want to!

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  8. "You could bounce a metaphorical quarter off my psyche." HA!!! (And with an ass like that, I doubt he'll want to touch anyone else's.)

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    1. Oh, I think he might, if mine was unavailable for the rest of eternity or whatever.

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  9. You guys are hilarious. I can only imagine how entertaining it would be to be a fly on the wall and listen your battle conversations.

    This weekend I asked Mr. W to massage my butt because it was sore from working out. I was laying on the bed, enjoying the rubdown when I said, "Do you feel like you're kneading dough right now?" And his reply was, "Yeah but I've never kneaded this much at once before." Husbands are so good at saying things you never really wanted to hear...

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    1. OMG. He cracks me up! Did you beat him?

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  10. OK, love the photo of you licking his head. Only a truly fun couple poses like that.

    I must be like you in that I carry tons of stress in my neck and shoulders. But I don't have a massage therapist. I just suffer and then go lift weights to try to FORCE the pain away. Hey, sometimes it works.

    And for whatever its worth, I'm the clean-off-the-counters person, too. I'm a mess in most other ways, but by God, we have counters for a reason and it isn't to store all the Mrs' junk that she didn't put in the drawer or a cabinet. Although it sure looks like it. Do you have potted plants on all your kitchen counters making it impossible to eat? I move them and then she says "you can't move them! They have to face the sun!" Let them face the sun OUTSIDE where the sun is!! AUGH!!!

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