Thursday, June 12, 2008

Everything Is Perfect, Including You

I love you a little bit more today than I did yesterday. Don't know why, I just do.

Maybe it's because you looked vulnerable. Maybe it's because I kissed you all over your face. Maybe it's because the sex was phenomenal.

Maybe there's just a whole helluva lot of good in this world, and you remind me of that.

Some days are just good. Some days are full of certainty. Some moments are full of you, and I am satiated. In these moments I am certain of everything. Worry is a thing of the past. Insecurity is cast aside, and suddenly there is room for faith. Can a wary girl have faith in anything? Yes, if she allows herself to believe.

Nirvana is living in the moment. Nirvana is not worrying about the past or the future. All concerns that have nothing to do with Right Now only destroy our happiness. But like a well conditioned lab rat, I keep pushing the lever, over and over again, waiting to get my reward or punishment. I'm a salivating dog. I anticipate everything, good and bad -- and in my anticipation, I ruin the moment. Because right now, I don't need whatever might come. I don't need anything more than this.

Sometimes I'm amazed how everything is saturated with the teachings of the Buddha. The lessons of awareness, and of letting go seep into the dry soil of my life -- work, boyfriend, family, son -- all of it filling with the same clear waters of acceptance. Everything is as it should be. Right now. Perfect.

As are you.


  1. Since I seem to be stalking you lately and getting first comment, I thought this blog was about me. But then there was that kissing and sex part that eliminated me as the subject. Oh well.

    Glad things are good!!

  2. I love this post. Letting go, and letting it all just 'happen' is so rewarding isn't it? Anticipation when not met can ruin everything. It's just so hard (for me) to live without anticipation 24/7. I'm trying though.


  3. Have you ever watched The Universe on History channel?
    You should.

    Good write.

  4. Perfect is a concept we don't come across very often. It gives us hope.

  5. *presses kudos button*


  6. I too, wish I could leave kudos. But two would never be enough.

  7. Awesome. Just awesome. Can you bottle some of that TODAY shit? Living in the moment is my greatest challenge...and it is the place of true peace. That Buddha knew his shit. I'm just sayin'...

  8. Thank you for being one of those people who just brings a little light to my day:) ~OM

  9. This was beautiful...
    Just beautiful!